It’s been a long time. What’s it been, like a year? Feels like it…
Anyway, I’ve been very down lately. No specific reason behind it. It’s just the way it is. Can’t be happy & funny all the time, right? ……WRONG! Permanent happiness might be nonexistent but being funny doesn’t require a smile. I could be pissed the fuck off and still make people laugh even when I myself don’t find shit funny.
I hadn’t even thought of what my next blog would be about as I was too consumed with making a blueprint on how to give that motherfucker that owes me money a deliberate, potent Boosie fade. He thinks I’m letting it slide til he’s eating gravel & drinking a concoction of his own blood and mucus. I don’t care how much you owe me. It can be 25 cents. If you try to play me for it, my only intention thereafter will be to hound and pound you. And your chances of recovering or living at all are extremely slim given the number of times I’ve contemplated leaving this earth prematurely. Imagine how much less I care about your well being if I can envision myself taking the Kurt Cobain route more than once.
I’m sure no one would ever expect for me to have these thoughts. That’s probably because I mastered this poker face that I live with and strengthened my ability to conceal my true emotions during the many hours I was neglected and completely stripped from having a voice with no regard. There’s no point in saying something if no one will listen. All anyone ever does anyway is get offended by the advice and opinions they originally asked others to provide. People can be so fucking stupid and it just makes me not want to interact with them.
It’s almost as if logic has become extinct. It’s not exercised enough. But that’s a whole ‘nother subject.
The reason why I’m down could be the fact that I’m ashamed to be the same species as that dude that owes me. And that son of a bitch cop who shot a dog only because he was protecting his owner who was lying on concrete after having a seizure. The same species that bred these heinous creatures along with others such as James Holmes, Rudy Eugene, Yolanda Saldívar and these fucking idiots:
I am disgusted at the fact that I share similar characteristics with these people, that I’m classified as a human alongside them. And those I mentioned aren’t even a tenth of a percent that are out there .
There are few people who keep my hope of discovering good on this planet alive. I wish there were more people like them. With that said, I would like to awkwardly wish my sister Nicole a ‘Happy Burfday’ even though it totally doesn’t blend in with this horrible post. I love you and I’m sure you have already found humor somewhere in reading this regardless of how serious I am.
Allow me to put my mask back on to preserve this facade of being 100% complacent and approving of the aspects in my life. It’s the only way to co-exist with others successfully. Not that I give a fuck anyway.
Oh, and by the way……the guy in the video has a Hannah Montana towel on his lap. Fuck is wrong with you niggas, man?! *sigh*
I’m out. *blocks & reports world as spam*